you cannot go into the field of art looking for money. you really have to believe and put faith in the beauty . if you dont see the beauty. and worship that shit. money will become important. but i really do want to be the best.

I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.

you dont seem to realize
that you changed everything.